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Wow, is really how I’m feeling right now. But I don’t think that word does justice to what just happen to me today. To kind of give you a sneak peak in to my life, I’ve been dealing with a lot things internally. I guess that’s kind of my nature or how I’ve taught myself to deal with issues that I face. I deal with them by becoming a human sponge and absorbing them or internalizing them then act as if everything is okay. But what I’ve found out lately was that when I do that, it does more damage physically and spiritually to me than good because I’m holding on to anxieties, world pressures, issues, disappointments, bad comments, etc. Have you ever done that or been there before?
So about what happen to me. Since I had been dealing with these things, I’ve been praying that God would help me either deal with them or overcome them through his strength. Well a new friend of mine and I were talking and she made the hottest analogy about issues in relation to our success. Check this out. She said, “Your body/life is a hot air balloon and in every air balloon basket are bags of sand to give a sense of weight to the balloon. Well depending on how many bags of sand you have determines how hard your torch has to work to get the big balloon in the air. That’s physics. So think of your life as the balloon and the bags of sand as issues, unresolved internal problems, let downs, etc. and the more you have the harder you have to work to get to the top or in the air. And it would only make sense if you would just let go of some those issues, problems, and disappointments and you would began to see your life take flight at a more accelerated rate. See with the bags being in the basket you can only get so high in the sky and some people are cool with that, being at a place of comfort or familiarity, but if you rid yourself of all the baggage you then put yourself in a position to take advantage of the opportunity to soar at new altitudes, see new horizons, and view the world at a different perspective. But you can’t when you constantly hold on to that which keeps you at smog or eye level. You have to let them go.”
When I heard this I was upset, hurt, happy, and relieved all at the same time. Now you’re probably wondering how I was experiencing all those emotions at the same time. Well I upset and hurt because of the way I had been living or my approach to the whole scheme of things, and I was happy and relieved because God was showing me my way out. The bible records in 1 Peter 5:7 that we should, “cast all your anxieties upon Him [God] for He cares for you.” But if you’ll be honest it’s hard. So I then went to my room ate a cookie and got on my face before God crying for Him to work on me in the secret places. Those places I’ve hidden from all to see because I was scared of getting hurt or hurting someone; those places where only He could reach in and prune/purge all the bad and dead stuff away with out leaving a scar. I needed God to do a work like King David cried out for in Psalms 51:10 when he said, “create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.” And that spoke to me because I was operating out of a broken, hurt, unpleasant heart and spirit and I really needed God to take my bags of sand so that I could really experience all that He had for me. But first I needed him to replace my old heart and spirit with ones that would make him happy and allow me to get the job done. So now I’m on the operating table. To soar or not to soar – that is the question!
So about what happen to me. Since I had been dealing with these things, I’ve been praying that God would help me either deal with them or overcome them through his strength. Well a new friend of mine and I were talking and she made the hottest analogy about issues in relation to our success. Check this out. She said, “Your body/life is a hot air balloon and in every air balloon basket are bags of sand to give a sense of weight to the balloon. Well depending on how many bags of sand you have determines how hard your torch has to work to get the big balloon in the air. That’s physics. So think of your life as the balloon and the bags of sand as issues, unresolved internal problems, let downs, etc. and the more you have the harder you have to work to get to the top or in the air. And it would only make sense if you would just let go of some those issues, problems, and disappointments and you would began to see your life take flight at a more accelerated rate. See with the bags being in the basket you can only get so high in the sky and some people are cool with that, being at a place of comfort or familiarity, but if you rid yourself of all the baggage you then put yourself in a position to take advantage of the opportunity to soar at new altitudes, see new horizons, and view the world at a different perspective. But you can’t when you constantly hold on to that which keeps you at smog or eye level. You have to let them go.”
When I heard this I was upset, hurt, happy, and relieved all at the same time. Now you’re probably wondering how I was experiencing all those emotions at the same time. Well I upset and hurt because of the way I had been living or my approach to the whole scheme of things, and I was happy and relieved because God was showing me my way out. The bible records in 1 Peter 5:7 that we should, “cast all your anxieties upon Him [God] for He cares for you.” But if you’ll be honest it’s hard. So I then went to my room ate a cookie and got on my face before God crying for Him to work on me in the secret places. Those places I’ve hidden from all to see because I was scared of getting hurt or hurting someone; those places where only He could reach in and prune/purge all the bad and dead stuff away with out leaving a scar. I needed God to do a work like King David cried out for in Psalms 51:10 when he said, “create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.” And that spoke to me because I was operating out of a broken, hurt, unpleasant heart and spirit and I really needed God to take my bags of sand so that I could really experience all that He had for me. But first I needed him to replace my old heart and spirit with ones that would make him happy and allow me to get the job done. So now I’m on the operating table. To soar or not to soar – that is the question!
What do you think?
